Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Hey..(26)
Ppl its the new year!!arent ya guys happy?
Well i dun reali feel that happy..
Tried to take up new covenant...haha i cant stay focused...
Man Feels like a Load Whole of Bullcrap Shit!!
But why should i be caring..arent i being selfish..yea..i am
Us "Human"..r like NATO..What The Heck r we always doing??i duno!?
Well anyways..just cant stop being pissed...almost went insane during service..
Sry Reuben n Steffi..argh..had to claw myself..to keep me from going high!!HAHAHA
Just not sure y im like that nowadays...it just feels dumb...but i cant get rid of it
It actually feels Awesome..HAhaha
You know..i dunno why..but i feel like i lying to myself..thinking that well..im doing a good thing..in truth my mind is like a devil...
But i hate this bullshit..but i cant get rid of it..
I go to church...a happy n glorious place to serve the one n only God!!
But...is it reali why i go there for...nahhh dun think so..
Then wat the hell am i going there for??HAHAHA i dunno?!
Screw this Bullshit!Man..i just dunno wat to do..
Y do ppl care wat others think of them??if they know God,Love God..isnt just between God n u?
but hey wat the heck rite?!?
Ahhh forget this...just feel reali F-ed up...dunno why..dunno how..
I feel so distant from...maybe everyone..who i wanna share this to...
but y bother??well..they got their own problems rite??!
yea..they do..
I aint even depending on God..hahaha..cant go to him..
Sining like hell against Him..
dun deserve it...ahh F..
Help...me??nah forget it...
Dun deserve ur help..haha
F why??F dunno..
Trying to be nice in front of everyone..when i feel disgusted by doing that..
Im like hating everything now..except God..but i just feel like i cant get back into the race..
haha Emo kid..yea like rite..
My New Covenant
Cant stick to it..wats the use of making it..
My Focus aint there..just screwed...reali screwed..
Argh..pity pity pity..
y??dunno la..
F-words..been removed..yea thanksLabels: Stuff
G N B danced till dawn at 9:33 AM
